Life's such an amazing, beautiful thing, but it's also so sad sometimes. About a month ago Todd got arrested for driving while intoxicated. To me, this was devastating news. If there's one thing that I've stressed throughout the entirety of our relationship, it's the fact that I will not tolerate drinking and driving, even buzzed driving. Some of you may wonder why- when I was 16 my twin sister, madison, was killed by a drunk driver when she was running while we were on spring break. Similarly, just over two years ago, I was in a terrible accident that nearly took my life and altered my life forever. I was a passenger in my own car, my then best friend was driving, a young girl had been at a party and had had too much to drink, she was 19 at the time, she crossed the median... needless to say, the doctor's basically told my parent's that they needed to plan my funeral when I was airlifted to the Emergency Room. Because of the events that occurred that summer night, my life has been changed forever, and I'll be the first to say that it was a change for the better. In some ways I am very thankful for this change in my life, because if this hadn't happened, I would be married to someone else, and I wouldn't be with Todd. Anyway, I'm not going into anymore details because there are wayyyy too many, but I hope you can better understand why it was a big deal for me when Todd got arrested. It took like a week for it to even set in, but once it did, I experienced a broad spectrum of emotions. I cried, I laughed, I hit, I kicked, I cursed....it wasn't a pretty site. Today Todd met with his attorney, he goes to court next Tuesday, and it's like I'm having to deal with it all over again. I'm trying to put my strong and supportive wall up because I know that that's what Todd needs most right now, but it's really hard.
So life's a little stressful, but I am sooooo in love with life right now that it doesn't even matter :) :)
I've really been wanting to get a tattoo for quite some time now, however- i've taken a lot of time in deciding what it is that i want, because i wanted to make sure that it was something that i wanted to be on my body forever. This is something that i immediately fell in love with and have been in love with since.
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Today is one of those days where i'd just like to cut the lights, draw the curtains and lay in bed, all day, watching sappy love stories with my baby. Honey- i know that the distance is hard. Some days are much easier than others, and some are just pure hell. I can always tell when he's having a tough day because he lashes out, and that's how i know that the distance is bothering him. Bee- just know that we may not get to be together all of the time right now, but it makes the time that we do get to spend together sooooo much more special to me. I love you more than anything in this world, whether you're around the corner,
150 miles away, or serving our country overseas, my love for you is unwavering.
Honey, I love you more than anything in this world. I am so grateful to have been blessed with someone so awesome. When my life is a mess and things get tough and confusing, you're always there, beside me, guiding me. I love you more than words can explain, and I always will. You are my rock and my saving grace and I would go insane without you, it's as simple as that. You are the best think that has ever happened to me, and I am so grateful to have you in my life. I love you, always, baby boo.
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loving you is the easiest thing I've ever done
